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An Apocalypse in St. James's Park

Dreamed pre-1983 by Robin Hardy

Introduction

On the rare occasions that I remember dreams I always review them as possible sources for fiction. I feel that I am not so overwhelmed with good ideas that I can afford to ignore any source of inspiration.

As a novelist I think I am most anxious to build what I think of as Palpable Scenes, by which I suppose I mean scenes complete with a cast of characters, atmosphere, and suspense. I think it comes from being trained as a film director.

Dreams, I find, are better at conveying atmosphere and suspense to me after I have awakened, than leaving any clear impression of characters. Of course, the characters are often people I know well, so this is hardly needed. But the other characters, vivid while I am dreaming, fade away like over-exposed photographs when I awake. Story dreams (with plots that seemed memorable as I emerged from sleep) nearly always seem banal or flimsy when examined a little later on a sheet of paper. That is why the "St. James's Park" dream made such an impression upon me.

The St. James's Park piece needed no revamping to make a story. I vaguely remember asking the Garden Party Lady about the attitude of the Americans and so on, but she wouldn't answer me because of the "two minutes silence" so I have made that an internal monologue, which, in a sense, it was.

An Apocalypse in St. James's Park

I have never before been surprised by an apocalyptic dream, quite simply because I have never, if my waking memory serves me aright, had one.

The surprise came during the dream, which started ordinarily enough; as commonplace in their dreaminess, my dreams, as to be indistinguishable in my memory, one from another. Sleeping in arborial Connecticut, I found myself dreaming in urban England, a country I very rarely visit although I was once a native.

Sherry had been served on silver salvers to a middle-aged group of us standing around rather formally in a drawing room in Queen Anne's Gate (a street, in spite of its name, that backs on to St. James's Park in London). Large French windows opened onto a terrace which overlooked a walled garden and the Park beyond. A ceremonial group stood in the garden, some of them in uniform.

Is this an Embassy I am in? I wondered. For I was conscious, in addition to the stiffness and formality of everyone, that they seemed as unacquainted with one another as I was with any of them. Why that should have suggested a diplomatic atmosphere I cannot say, but that was my impression. Perhaps it was their artificial conviviality?--that and that so many of the men wore uniforms.

Unable to find anyone I knew, I ventured out onto the terrace to get a closer look at the ceremonial group in the garden. To my surprise I saw two Buddhist monks in saffron robes standing on either side of a great gong. The semi-circle of uniformed and formally attired men faced the two monks with an expectant air, as if waiting for the music to start, or a speech to be made. But silence was intervening; not a soul seemed to have anything to say.

In the distance, across the corner of St. James's Park, a parade seemed to be taking place. One heard the tuck of drums and the thin shriek of a Guard's Sergeant-Major carried on the breeze. His command was followed by the skirl of bagpipes and the hesitating tread of the slow-march. It was a sad tune, a pibroch or a dirge. I remembered that beyond the Horse Guards' parade ground, which I could just see through the wintry trees, lay the Cenotaph, the memorial for Britain's dead in two World Wars. As if to confirm a modest piece of deduction I looked around to see if anyone had red poppies in their button-holes, and, yes indeed, some had.

So it was Armistice Day, November 11th, the day it was All Quiet on the Western Front in the War to End Wars, also used by the British to commemorate the lesser carnage of 1939-45.

But why the Buddhist monks? There were no other Orientals present. The rest of the gathering seemed to be polyglot Western European.

Just then the music in the distance stopped and the monk to the right of the gong looked up at us on the terrace. His face was of a Mongolian cast, he might have been Sikkimese or Thai. It was a serene face, almost smiling, in odd contrast to each of the Caucasian faces around us, who seemed to be suffering from some internal pain, as does a person {orced to hold their breath for too long. He gazed around at us reassuringly and raised his arms to show us the staff with which he was about to strike the gong.

I looked back into the room at the erstwhile sherry drinkers. They were standing in little knots, eagerly holding out their empty glasses to waiters who offered more sherry, or stronger stuff-whiskey or gin. Then came the sound of the staff hitting the gong, the first of twelve well-spaced strokes. The drinkers seemed to shrink from the sonorous notes, as if from unseen blows. They shuffled away from the windows towards the back of the room; but facing the light, the hazy sunlight of the wintry afternoon in the Park.

I had still spoken to no one. But now I went up to one of the middle-aged English ladies in her Sunday best, hatted and shod as if for a Buck House garden party. "Aren't you having a drink?" she asked me, in some astonishment, before I could speak.

"Why do the drinks seem so important to everyone?" I asked rather rudely, but obsessed, suddenly, with the mystery of these urgent drinkers, on an occasion, which, while always melancholy, had never seemed to call for desperate drinking; nor for this mood of agonized suspense that I sensed in everyone.

"You mean you don't think they'll do it?" she asked, incredulously.

"They?" I was quite at sea.

"Good Heavens, man! The Russians. It's been seven weeks now."


"Seven weeks?"

"Since they all left their Embassy and went home. Even the chauffeurs they say. And the Poles and the Hungarians, and the Rumanians, the whole lot of them. Don't you read the papers?"

The last stroke of the gong had apparently shuck, because, as I was about to ask a good many supplementary questions that had come urgently to mind, she turned, as did everyone else, and faced the windows. A total silence had descended upon the room, and outside in the garden too; in the whole great city there semed to be no sound, not a horn, or an internal combustion engine, not even a bird. The twelve strokes seemed to have been a signal.

"But what...?" I sought to ask my garden party lady.

"Shhh!" she said urgently, looking shocked and reproving. The two minutes silence for the dead, that was what it was, I supposed. But familiar as I had been with it, in my boyhood, I never remember it being taken quite as seriously as this. The absent Russians were the threat of course. I wondered if anyone knew why they had left, taking the diplomats of all their client states with them.

Had they actually threatened to destroy us during the two minutes silence? I remembered someone in Washington saying that the ideal time to "get them" was during the May Day Parade in Moscow, when all their big-wigs were taking the salute from the top of Lenin's tomb in Red Square. Perhaps the Government had decided to ask the nation to pray, during this symbolic silence, that we all be spared annihilation. Possibly this was supposed to be a tribal act of propitiation to our (usually forgotten) war-dead to save us in this time of our utter helplessness; as the defeated Persians prayed to the shades of Darius the Great and his warriors after the decimation of their armies and their fleets by the ancient Greeks.

I knew I was to have no answers, that I was fated only to share in that awful suspense, as if I were some amnesiac guest come late to the unexplained party. But the dread permeated the room like a cold, damp mist, and the waiters put down their trays and stood amongst us, facing what everyone seemed to fear was the last of the light.

I wondered why everyone seemed to be without any real hope. We British, I knew, had nuclear submarines, with rockets targeted at all times upon Moscow and Leningrad, Omsk and Tomsk, Kiev and Vladivostock. If we die--they'll die. They must have thought of that. I knew that most Europeans doubted that America would honor her promise to retaliate on our behalf. Two World Wars had shown how desperately late the U.S. could leave her intervention. But I had lived most of my life in America and I felt sure that a new sense of reality prevailed there now. Russia, too, must know that. Surely they must know that?

Two minutes is a very long time. A single second lasts as long as it takes to say "a thousand and one," not very fast. One hundred and twenty of those seconds would have to have passed before, for some reason, we could all breathe easily again.

A woman (not the stoic lady beside me) started to scream, and was slapped by another woman. There were tears in many people's eyes and they stood so tautly that they seemed likely to snap with the tension.

I looked out at the Park, where something seemed to be happening. The bare branched trees were bending as if in a most un-British hurricane, and, blowing across the grass, skittering like leaves in the autumn, were people. People!

The monk's smile came to me. Such a reassuring smile. Another life awaits you. Be not afraid my friends.

The windows imploded.

Why has there been no flash? I thought. Surely there's supposed to be a blinding light before the flash, a flash before the wind?


SOURCE: Dreamworks: an Interdisciplinary Quarterly (v.3, no.2, summer 1983, pp.150-52, under title A Statement about Dreams)



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