Autism and Asperger Syndrome
I'm grateful I was spared the severer consequences of clinical autism. Still... I was a child prodigy who others perceived as deeply strange; am a math savant; can't recognize human faces (I know my friends and relatives only by their voices, gestures and moods); read and understand animal emotions better than human ones; get easily overwhelmed by loud or flickering colors or sounds; can't stop rocking and fidgeting to save my life; feel best alone, and find crawling in cracks or hiding up on rocks very comforting, and often flinch when hugged, and feel as uneasy meeting people's eyes as a wolf would... and just generally have difficulty acting like a human being.
And if this list sounds familiar, maybe you or someone you know is subclinically autistic too...
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|ABREAST OF THE COMPETITION: by Wayan; dreamed 2013/10/9, a dream about slighting yourself to appease others
A tall busty girl's younger, part-unicorn friend starts developing breasts at last--and makes boob jokes, mocking her own body to reassure her herdmate she's no competition...
|ADORABLE CYBORGS: by Wayan; dreamed 2016/10/5, a dream-poem on inner teamwork
A child dreamer and two different kinds of cyborg must cooperate to free the hostages locked under San Francisco Bay...
|THE BARRINGTON BUNNY: by Wayan; 1988/8/30, a world-saving alien-abduction dream
Alien robots kidnap me... and make me the mascot for a college football team. But my Channel Changer slowly infuses us all with nerdy trust...
|BASTARD UNICORN: by Wayan; 2012/6/28, a dream about ambition
Since I'm half-unicorn, my ambition drives me to share power and help the whole herd--that's how unicorns rise. But among human politicians...
|BIRD-SENSE: by Wayan; 2013/7/20; a dreampoem on denied senses, provoked by an improvised Shakespearean play.
I dream I have sixth and seventh senses--and wake to realize I do! Just denied them, explained them away...
CAUTION: SHAKESPEAREAN HEFT
|THE BUTTON IN LOVE: by Wayan, 2009/10/20, two surreal dreamlets on romantic cluelessness
A glowing sentient autistic button falls in love with a small boy; then I try to make two friends change orientation and fall in love by singing 'Molly Malone'...
CAUTION: JUST... WRONG
|CIDER AND WINE: by Wayan; 1974/10/24, surreal Aspie character study (undream)
As the humans of my writing class meet in this Victorian home I turn off my filters and describe what I really see around me...
|DEVANGELS: by Wayan, 2017/4/27, a numinous but ambivalent dream
After a hard day in the recording studio, I dream of powerful yet obedient devil-angels; quiet for now, but I fear they'll decide shamans like me are abominations...
CAUTION: ANGELS? GOLEMS? DEVILS?
|DISTRACTUS: by Wayan, 2004/5/5, a comic sexy diagnostic dream... that baffled me.
Sex in a meadow... but we get distracted by a parade of protesters. By politics. Then a friend warns me of a disease, Coitus Distractus...
CAUTION: (DISTRACTED) SEX
|DO YOU LOVE ME, JOHN?: by Wayan; 1991/7/6, a dream on the courage of the shy.
I dream of a future where blondes are a too-cute endangered species. How can they survive? Like this...
|EEL GIRLS: by Wayan; 1993/9/14, a tearjerker nightmare.
I learn to fly, but keep it quiet. Yet aliens still find out, and tell me a truth I didn't want to know...
|EFFORT VERSUS APTITUDE: by Wayan, 2017/8/23, a dream about... oh, read the title.
I urge a cafe to host a talented Tarot reader with an amazing aura, but the owner says "Anyone can be psychic with practice." Oh? Can practice make you Einstein, too?
|THE ENTWINED CHILD AND MADAM PURR-SAY: by PurplePurplePurple; 2013/7/5, two mirroring poem-dreams the same night
I dream my autistic son, miraculously high-functioning, recites a math-poem to a crowd...
Then I become cartoon cat Madam Purr-Say and chant my own defiant poem at the dream gods...
CAUTION: FIRST POEM AUTISTIC, SECOND PISSY
|THE ERTHEDNI: by Wayan, 1977/1/8, three transformation dreams, the last with advice
1: I'm starving in a lush valley; a cult claims all the food, the water, even the air.
2: I'm drowning in a cage but find a corner with water I can breathe--just barely.
3: I'm a merman with a wise friend who hints I need to leave those who starve & drown me...
CAUTION: DOMESTIC BATTERING (OFFSTAGE)
|FALL OF A PRINCE: by Wayan; 2006/11/17, a dream on the morality of predicting.
A time-traveling historianís caught in a moral dilemma: warn an ancient prince he died of a fall in her history books? What do you owe history?
|FIBONACCI: by Wayan; 2011/4/18, a dream-poem with answers
My friends are all computer programs. But then, so am I. But it's not so bad, because...
|FLY AWAY HOME: by Wayan; 1996/12/26, a dream of flight and kindness.
I'm an alien castaway, hiding my wings. But Earth feels like home now! If I could fly here, would I stay?
|FOAM, FURS, DREAMS: by Wayan; 2012-16, a blog + 170 pics; dozens of dreams guide me to sculpt huge furry dream statues.
Dreams urge me to build life-size dream creatures with fur, joints, muscles & bones, then to heal myself by mating with them...
CAUTION: FETISHISM, FURRY NUDITY & SEX
|FORESEE ELECTION, BUT BLIND TO SEX: by Wayan; 2012/10/23, a profitable predictive dream only half heeded
On hearing the election results, a girl at Esalen Hot Springs joyfully dances around me naked. I heed the message about the election, but not about...
|A GREAT NIGHTMARE, or, The Autistic Dream Lecturer: by Wayan; 1997/1/2, a diagnostic nightmare.
I dream I'm addressing a dream convention, but I'm autistic! I MUST act bizarre, just to function...
|HELP, NOT CURE: by Wayan; 1996/12/26, a dream on autism.
Gay angels try to help an autistic woman. Change her past? Only if they pass the Ass-Backward Guardians!
|INCREMENTAL HEAVENS: by Wayan; 2016/9/5, a reincarnation-frustration dream, baffling at the time--but less so now
I get reincarnated over and over in conservative heavens where progress is numbingly slow, blocked by know-nothings. Of course, after the election...
|JADE'S EXPERIMENT, or, CLEVER HANS: by Wayan; 1981/4/29, a dream diagnosing the costs of sensory differences
I volunteer for a friend's psychological test, for her thesis. But using my sixth sense corrupts her data! Might it corrupt my real life too?
|LET'S IMPOSE: by Wayan; 1992. Nondream digital painting.
Engineers! How they do love to impose clean lines on our messy world...
|THE MAN WHO MISTOOK...: by Wayan; 1995/9/19, an insane dream.
I'm just an ordinary guy, who beats his son so he'll grow faster, and sees tits on drinking fountains...
|A NEVADAN ASS: by Wayan, 2007/5/17, a dream-poem warning I sabotage myself in art AND love
On a ranch in Nevada, I'm a were-horse into mares--when I'm human. And when I'm a stallion? Why, cowgirls of course! Whoever won't fit...
And... why do I suspect this dream's about that tough art critique I face tomorrow--showing dream-comix to commercial artists?
CAUTION: FURRYPHILIA, REJECTION JUNKIE
|ONE-PERCENTERS: by Wayan; 2014/5/2, a dream on how egalitarianism can drive the gifted crazy
A sociologist exposes the smugness of Britain's 1%, but the writer's denial of any innate differences at all can be just as pernicious as elitism...
CAUTION: EGALITARIANISM ON TRIAL
|OTTER NERD FROM TITAN: by Wayan; 2012/4/15 & sequel-dream (2013/2/9), a dream-poem on social skills
A suspicious exobiologist warns me that otter from Titan may not be the amiable, nerdy celebrity it seems. But...
|PETER PAN SYNDROME: by Wayan; 1995/1/10, a dream on those books...
I meet Peter Pan grown up: a stark, fey prince in exile. Why do only I see him, and the Lost Children? Oh.
|THE POWER OF NON-VISUALIZATION: by Wayan; 2018/4/29, a mystical dream whose teaching worked
I'm listening to a film-talk on Non-Visualization. "Don't wish--don't will--don't visualize. Just face what you really want, and then don't push..."
|PRODIGIES' ODDITIES: by Wayan; 1994/2/2, a confession.
I suspect we child prodigies and geniuses are as unlike the gifted as normal people. So here's a checklist...
CAUTION: BRAIN REQUIRED
|THE PRODIGY-ALLERGY LINK: by Wayan; 1994/7/21, a clipping and reactions
Child prodigies may develop allergies due to immunosystem damage from too much testosterone in utero...
|PRODIGY SUPPORT: by Wayan; 1994/7/21, a clipping and reactions
News of a child prodigy who was given the support I wasn't, triggers a flood of envy and bitterness...
|PUPPY: by Naoki Higashida; March or April 2015, a role-reversal dream
I walk home with a puppy to meet my mum, who addresses the dog by my name and invites him in, while I head for my doghouse in the garden...
|SADDLED WITH AUTISM: by Wayan; 1999/10/1, a dreamtale.
I'm autistic; a TV host encourages me and another autistic kid to have sex on the air...
CAUTION: UNDERAGE SEX ON NATIONAL TV; SERIOUS FINGER-POINTING
|SAFETY GETS ME HOT: by Wayan; 1997/3/27, a dream on sensitivity.
I'm trapped in a post-apocalypse pulp story! Fun for my readers, but not for me! How to escape?
|SHOVED OFF A CLIFF: by Wayan; 2017/9/7, a warning nightmare induced by asking the Dream Goddess what to tackle next
Atop a sea-cliff, I meet a young couple in love. One look at me and they try to push me off! When I see I can't save myself, I try to take them with me...
CAUTION: NIGHTMARE BARING UGLY TRUTHS
|SHY NO MORE: by Wayan; 2008/8/13. A dream poem, Dreamverse #3
I play the lovers in a teen romance: shy abused boy, insecure girl. But I get tired of the script, and...
|SKUNKERPILLAR: by Wayan; 2018/4/7, an advisory dreamlet about metamorphosis
After I (sort of) foil elf-burglars, a friendly elf-woman shows me a black caterpillar, then a white-striped skunkerpillar......
|STOP OBAMA'S ASSASSINATION: by Wayan; 2012/2/10. A dream about politics? Or health?
Two child prodigies fail to stop the assassins stalking President Obama, but a geeky guy with a home-made laser...
|TELEKINETIC KIDS: by Wayan; 2017/9/8, a warning and exploratory dream
A black separatist commune hides two little girls who are psychokinetic. They fear I'll expose them. But I've spent my whole life passing too...
CAUTION: PARAPSYCHOLOGY, RACIAL SEPARATISTS
|TELEPATHY VERSUS AUTISM: by Wayan; 1997/4/19, an utterly dreamlike but waking vignette
A weird little identity-confusion at a dance suggests I'm simultaneously psychic, autistic, and... stupid.
|THE THREATENERS: by Wayan; 1997/4/23, a small psychic dream.
Two gunmen break in, call me by a strange name, and demand I repay a loan I never borrowed...
|THROUGH THE WIRES: by Wayan; 2007/9/16, two surreal contrasting dreams
At a party I meet some wolflike aliens, and somehow start seeing through their eyes--pack, status and pecking order. And then...
I'm crossing a field, skirting cows, climbing through a barbwire fence, as I explain cows, wires and material life to a floating energy-being...
|A VALLEY NEAR HOPE: by Wayan; 1984/10/17-19, an epic dream.
I'm lost in a valley where unicorns love cyborgs but fear giant ants, who adore unicorns but hate cyborgs, who think ants are cute, but dread unicorns! And while the Three Tribes love and hate, cave-monsters sculpt them all. I set up peace talks between these four vertices of my tetrahedral soul, but what if I get what I want? Peace, love... transformation? What if those aren't cute and New Age?
CAUTION: SWEARING, DRUNK LIONS, CYBORG SURGERY, AND GOGGLE-BARFING
|VERITY, TOO?: by Wayan; 2000/11/5, a comic nightmare with practical advice--if I avoid going all Freudian
Both my painting mentors turn on me! My mom accuses me of hereditary inferiority, then my teacher Verity sits on my head and says...
|WERECAT SYNDROME: by Wayan, 2017/4/23, an advisory dream on Asperger Syndrome. Or maybe masculinity.
Werecat Syndrome runs in my family. Academics assume I'm a savage predator. Why? All I want to do is rub up against girls and find one who purrs back...
|WHITE AND MALE ARE SLURS: by Wayan, 2017/3/8, a dream parsing white male anger into three factors: free speech, reverse racism, and an unexpected third...
Activists rant to a crowd "White males should shut up so others can speak!" I want to bring up MY intersecting minorities, ones not on their approved list--autism, prodigism, second sight...
|WHY I LIE: by Wayan, 2016/10/7, a dream on privacy-guilt
Asked to share a bit about myself, I lie. Why? Not only are people like me illegal, we're believed to be impossible...
|WILD MAGIC: by Wayan, 2018/1/8, a dream on finding a place
A teacher drafts me into her magic class to shake up those wizard wannabes. My magic's wild, ignoring spells & rules. I don't think I realized how wild...
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