THE WORLD DREAM BANK: TOPIC: healing from abuse

The World Dream Bank:
HEALING FROM ABUSE

Dreams about abuse and healing from abuse: molestation, battering, child neglect, political or racial persecution...

Abused people often play with the fire that burned them--in their dreams and in their lives. That's not necesssarily self-destructive, though it may look like it to others. Just re-enact it safely, and don't lose your self-respect. If you relive it enough you'll get a sense of control, put it past you, and stop. The challenge is to come through this phase alive, uninfected, and unaddicted. Only possible if you don't write yourself off as ruined and give up trying to protect yourself--and that's hard in America at least, where a Puritan tradition tends to write off every prostitute, drug user, crazy beggar, criminal, child molester, batterer, politician and telemarketer as hopelessly damned. But you're not--unless you give up!

I believe acting out the dramas of abuse in your dreams is just as effective as acting them out on the street, in bars, in bad marriages... and a lot safer! This is a reason to welcome shameful, even degrading dreams! Stand up for yourself in such dreams as if they're real, and be glad you're merely miserable.

Because you're working things through. It's the numb people who are stuck.

RELATED TOPICS: more general health advice in dreams - parenting and neglect - orphans and runaways - outcasts and pariahs in general - racism, sexism, and homophobia - bullying and intimidation - incest - underage sex and pedophilia - general sexual exploitation - drugs - addiction and twelve-step programs - therapy - dreamwork - belonging - See also the full INDEX OF SUBJECTS.

The World Dream Bank has 1500 dreams and dream images plus 500 other pages on dreamwork and shamanism, creativity, genius, art, surrealism and fantasy. Unless otherwise noted, all material copyright Chris Wayan, 2001-2006.

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	ABJECT OBJECT: by Wayan; 1992, a nondream digital picture-prose-poem It's OK to be a sex object as long as you're also a subject. What's no fun is being an abject... CAUTION: NUDITY, SEXUAL THEMES
	THE ABUSE PANELISTS: by Wayan; 1997/2/6, nondream journalism A whole convention of adults abused as kids shows me how hard it is to hide the damage... CAUTION: ABUSE ISSUES
	ADRIAN TRIED: by Wayan, 1991/3/12, an embarrassing dream. Adrian and Jennifer and Michelle try very very hard to get my attention, but I'm a bit oblivious... CAUTION: SEXUAL STUPIDITY
	ALERTNESS GYM: by Wayan; 1994/4/19, a strange dream date. I go on a date who seems bored till she takes me to the Alertness Gym...
	ALONE IN THE DARK IN THE WILD: by Wayan; 1980/7/24, a vision-quest nightmare. A nightmare of a killer who I let torment me because it's better than being alone...
	ALPINE GUINEA PIG & SEXLESS CHILD, or, I'M EITHER A GREAT MOM OR A TERRIBLE MOM: by "Veronica Franco"; 2006/8/19, a dream of penned creatures and those who love them. Alpine deer-hamsters, pigs, birds, children, even fundamentalists' daughters grow up and want to fly free...
	THE ANT REPRESENTATIVE: by Wayan; 1996/3/18, a romantic dream of bugs. I fall in love with a diplomat from a hive mind. Am I luring her into dangerous individuality?
	ARCHANGEL: by Wayan; 1997/10/19, a dream-farce--or is it? Sure I've been through hell, but how the hell did that get me elected archangel? And why's my butt itch? CAUTION: ITCHY BUTT
	BATTERED, WITH SYRUP: by Wayan; 1998/11/21, a healing dream. I'm a battered girl who sings in a mall. The Mall Dictator (of all people) helps me start to heal, and learn to fly... CAUTION: BATTERING AND ITS CONSEQUENT DAMAGE
	IN THE BIG BURN: by Wayan; 1997/7/22, a postnuclear dream. I love a girl who wants to settle in a radioactive jungle, a scar from an ancient war. Stay or go?
	A BIKE ODYSSEY: by Wayan; 1994/7/24, a day trip echoed in a dream. By day, I bike across San Francisco; by night, I'm an abused English heiress with a dangerous artifact... CAUTION: MOLESTATION BY DISSOLUTE COUNT
	BLEEDING HEART, the SELF-HEALING CORPSE, and IN THE FUTURE DESERT: by Wayan; 250K, 10 illus., 2002/5/29 to July 2004, a diagnostic, predictive dream-series. A tree-girl moves to Hollywood to make film deals, but jealousy stabs her... CAUTION: BLOODY ASSAULT, GAY DRYADS, MUTANT NUDITY
	BLIND ANCESTORS: by Wayan; 2007/8/6, a nightmare poem about all of us While we’re off at work, blind Ancestors come smash our homes--and we all take zombie vandal relatives for granted...
	BURN: by Sierra Loucks; 1990?, a five-year-old’s nightmare I was at the beach with my friends. It was fun. But gradually they were laughing at me, not with me. Then they picked up burning sticks... CAUTION: GRUESOME
	THE CAMBODIAN GIRL: by Wayan; 125K, 1996/4/2 dream illustrated by sculpture, 2000. VERY mixed media--the boat is warped wood. And the story is warped more... CAUTION: SEXUALLY SUGGESTIVE AND QUITE EMBARRASSED ABOUT IT
	CATCH-UP: by Wayan; 2001/3/14, a dream on maturation Revelations about my mom put my shyness in a new light. That night I dream twin sisters suddenly zoom through puberty in hours... CAUTION: VERY SUDDEN BREASTS
	CHANGE THE CORE PROGRAM: by Wayan; 1995/6/28, a dream of sudden progress. I meet a tragic heroine--great heart, rotten luck. But I open her magic sword and find a bad chip...
	CHINA BEACH: by Wayan; 1992. Digital poster of a waking life-shift.. That moment when you tire of your old trauma and suddenly turn to the sun. Or fun. CAUTION: NUDITY, SEXUAL THEMES
	THE CHINESE PROFESSOR'S WIFE: by Wayan; 1997/2/4, a dream on abuse. My neighbor thinks I'm sleeping with his wife, who he abuses. Only I think she may be me... CAUTION: IMPLIED BATTERING
	CHUNKS, or, BABEZILLA!: by Wayan; two dreams 1990/10/4 and 1991/9/4 told as digital comics. I meet a giant psychic baby feared by 12-step people. So I go to the beach and find I'm a shark-bit girl who can have her missing chunks sewn back in--if I still have room for them...
	CLIMB FROM THE PIT: by Wayan, 1996/11/9, a dream parable. I'm in the Mideast. No wonder it's a war zone--it's a vast pit BUILT for war! But a spiral stair leads slowly out, to...
	COLOSTRUM FIRST!: by Lily and Wayan; 1998/2/27; a shared dream A dream of exhibitionist girls playing with breast milk turns out not to be symbolic, but psychic... CAUTION: BREASTS
	COLD-SHOWER CONSCIOUS: by Wayan; 1996/5/25, a dream dissecting a fear. Sexy frustrating dreamlets with a message, not about my unconscious, but about my CONSCIOUS... CAUTION: SEX TALK
	CURSING ISABELLA: by Wayan; 1992/8/19, a thoughtful dream of sorcery. How I cursed Isabella the sofa sorceress, cursed her with a blueberry. And why that stinks... CAUTION: UNDER THE MAGIC, IDEAS
	DATIN' DEMON: by Mark Varitz and Wayan; 1989/12/3; Mark's dream triggers one by Wayan. I meet my personal demon, and discover it has a personal demon: me! Am I worse than my Shadow? CAUTION: CRUDE LANGUAGE
	DATE GHOST: by Wayan; dreamed 1985? (exact date uncertain); acrylic. I tried to date a nice young butterfly but was stopped by a monster who was... my own wings? CAUTION: UNDERAGE BUG
	DEER SORCERESS: by Wayan; 1981/5/18, a dream on the virtues of chaos. A witch-girl turned to a deer flees hell-hounds who just CAN'T get organized...
	DID YOU THINK IT WOULD BE EASY?: by Wayan; 1995/1/15, a dream of slow liberation. Our Appalachian town revolts against fundamentalists, but brainwashing takes time to undo... CAUTION: SEX AND INJUSTICE
	DRAGON BANNERS: by Wayan; 125K, 1987/3/19, a dream on the hollow inside. A dragon's daughter seeking her inheritance defies a sneaky dragon-realtor out to own the world...
	DRIVER'S TEST: by Wayan; 1984/1/8, an illustrated Kafkan dreamtale. It's not easy to get a California driver's license, ever since the Dept. of Motor Vehicles went Jungian...
	EAT MORE FIBER: by Wayan, 1996/8/8, a nutritious little dream. Concerned about my health, I up my fiber intake. But not from the usual sources, though... CAUTION: BAD DIETARY ROLE MODEL
	EMBER IN THE BRAIN: by Wayan; 1983/3/31, a dreamtale on anger. I'm the Incredible Hulk, forced to do emergency brain surgery. And the patient's burning from within... CAUTION: VIOLENCE AND UNLICENSED MEDICINE
	FALSE ALARM: by Wayan; 1996/5/23, a nightmare I lived as a kid. In school, I'm seen as a freak--lied to, set up for little pranks. Not by my classmates--my teachers...
	A FAMILY ALBUM: by Wayan; 197K total: ink, digital tints; 1980ish; overview of family nightmares. A series of family shadows, as I saw them then. These scenes are NOT literal, do I make myself clear? But these tensions were real... CAUTION: GRIM! SEXUAL VIOLENCE, INCEST, MUTILATION
	FATHER LOOMS: by Wayan; 1983/?, a nonliteral diagnostic nightmare. I was a 30ish woman discovering that my chronic pelvic inflammation was from childhood molestation... CAUTION: MOLESTATION IN DREAM-PAST
	FISHERGIRLS: by Wayan; 1.5M, 42 illus.; 1996/7/15; a sexy dream epic. I had a spectacular dream one night, that lasted many days in dream-time--a true other life. It wasn't Earth, and we weren't human. I was a teenage lemur, sailing with two friends into unknown waters--a rite of passage. I woke on deck deep in the night, my friends curled around me, and realized I didn't WANT to pass the test, be declared a grown woman, marry and have pups. I loved my girl friends. In a world lacking the very word, I was groping toward queerdom. Sailing into unknown waters! "Here be dragons," the old maps say. And they were right... If 1500K is too big to load, try it in parts: 1: HOME, 450K, 2: VOYAGE, 680K, 3: BACK 400K. CAUTION: NUDITY, SEX, QUEER TEEN ANGST, ANTI-FUNDAMENTALISM
	FISHERGIRL IN WATERCOLOR; OVAL: by Wayan; 1996, watercolor of a 1996/7/15 dream scene. A watercolor portrait of Leaf and me on our boat in the lost city, from the dream FISHERGIRL... CAUTION: TRIBAL NUDITY
	THE FLASHBACK: by Wayan; 1985/11/28, a dark dream-farce. I'm a monster working in a shopping mall in Stockton, California, when I smell smoke... CAUTION: FILM NOIR SEX
	FREDDY KRUGER'S POLITICS: by Wayan; 1992/8/20, a dream of... ambition?. Freddy has plans for me and Telly Savalas's daughter... but what can he lure us with? What do we want?
	FUTURIANS: by Wayan; 1997/11/11, a dream on innocence. A time-loop introduces me to a future self full of innocent enthusiasm. Maddening! CAUTION: LANGUAGE
	GEEK SHORTAGE: by Wayan; 135K, 1990-95. Digital panorama on body image--literally. A narrative mural on the sexiness of dancers, as I became one--at the moment I lost my old geeky self...
	GHOSTS PUSH TOWARD THE SUICIDE DOOR: by Wayan, 1997/8/7, a nightmare that wants a break. I live in a haunted house where ghosts push you to suicide. But they're as tired of it as I am...
	FROM GLIDING TO FLIGHT: by Wayan; 1993/11/15, an illustrated dream. Hypnotherapy is hopeless with these blind architects flopping all over the cafe, but my flying has improved...
	GOAT DARE: by Wayan; 1984/8/22, a sex nightmare. A girl and I climb a half-built tower to get some privacy. What can we do before my nosy parents find us? CAUTION: SEX, HUMILIATION, FAMILY VALUES
	GOLD EATER: by Wayan; 560K, 9-page comic of a 1993/1/15 dream. I'm an orphan shapeshifter enslaved by a gold-eating monster. But I meet a cat-girl with a hammer... CAUTION: BAD FOSTER-DAD; CAPITALIST MONSTER; VIOLENCE TO INNOCENT VENDING MACHINES
	GREENBIRD SAVIOR: by Wayan; 1983/6/2, a divine comedy. Time-travel the Navaho way! But our bread-pipe gets hijacked, so we call the Bird. Who shows up, all right... CAUTION: NON-STANDARD SAVIOR, EVIL DREAM PUNS
	GUARD ON THE BEACH: by Wayan; 1980/9/17, a dream of moral suasion Very nearly a nightmare, till the guard on the beach relented in the face of people power...
	GUIDE IN THE RUINS: by Wayan; 1996/11/20, a hopeful dream of ruin. Through vast Soviet ruins to the modest rooms where the new Russia lives. As I fall in love with my guide...
	HALF-HEARTED GHOST: by Wayan; 1994/9/28, a dream on the cruelty of shyness. I go invisible in my dance class and hear what the girls I like have to say about me. Uh-oh... CAUTION: PAINFUL RELATIONSHIP TRUTHS
	HAWK ANGEL: by Wayan; 1982/12/28; a dream on rejecting hearsay. I dreamed I met a sort of hawk angel, but there was this preachy guy between us... CAUTION: NUDITY
	HEALING THE RING: by Wayan; 1984/8/22, a nightmare on... anger? I bear a Ring of Power meant to corrupt me. I cleansed it, at a cost, but can't wield it till I've read its spell...
	THE HEDGE KING: by Wayan, 1992/6/14, a gender-bent dream epic. I change sex to infiltrate a sinister castle, unaware its Lord can spot a shapeshifter--being one himself... CAUTION: A DISTURBING BEDSIDE MANOR. I MEAN, MANNER.
	THE HEDGEHOG DISPENSARY: by Wayan; 440K, 27 watercolors, 2004/10/2, a dream of a furry ambitopia. A rabbit shaman orders his apprentice to drape dead hedgehogs round her neck til she bleeds. Ow! What’s his problem? Well... CAUTION: FURRY NUDITY, ABUSIVE MENTOR
	HER ONLY FRIEND: by Wayan; 1996/7/1, a dream of worms turning. A sorceress trains a kid as a prostitute who'll spy on her powerful clients. But her training has side effects... CAUTION: EXPLOITED KIDS
	HER OWN WEAPON: by Wayan; 1983/8/31, a poltergeist-therapy dream. A woman says she's being stalked, but it's her own poltergeist! Her therapist makes her reach for it...
	HIS DEER WIFE: by Wayan; 195K, 20 images, 1995/7/9, a parallel world love story. I'm a slave, a scribe in the house of a Captain of the New Aztec Empire, when he brings home a wife... CAUTION: SLAVE SOCIETY, SEX, SPOUSAL ABUSE/NEGLECT
	HOT TO TROT, or, BRAIN TRAUMA, or, HUMPIN' THE HOG, or, SAD-EYED SWAN OF LOVE: by Wayan; 120K, 1993/8/4, a wild dreamtale. I'm a mare, hot to trot in the Big City (and get laid), but my gay Star Trek friend's brain trauma has made her a clueless alien with a bo(a)ring sexlife--until a certain swan enfolds her in love... CAUTION: ALIEN POSSESSION, CARTOON PIG SEX, SMOKING SWANS
	HOUSE OF BLUE LIGHT: by Wayan; 1994/4/3, a dark dream. As my grandmother is dying, I have a dream about what really went on in her house... CAUTION: CHILD SLAVERY
	HUNG BY ELDER: by Wayan; 1997/7/30, a nightmare. A disowned heiress and I sneak onto the family estate, but they'll go pretty far to hide their skeletons... CAUTION: VIOLENCE
	I CAN'T JOIN THE TRIBE: by Wayan; 1997/8/12, a nightmare on madness. After the eco-crash, I try to join a tribe in the jungle that was Oakland. But they reject me, for good reason...
	I DREAM OF DERIVERRANS: by Wayan; 1982/11/16, a Joycean dream of surrender. I must rescue Ann Soforth from righteous rapists, then Paul McCartney from a musical curse... CAUTION: ABUSED CHILD, JOYCEAN LANGUAGE
	I LOST 400 POUNDS!: by Wayan; 1993/6/24, a motivational dream. A gorgeous healer bursts through the wall to tell me "I used to weigh 500 pounds. It kept sex away! But..."
	I WAS A SEX SLAVE: by Wayan; 1994/11/20, a dream on isolation I'm a slave dancer. I run for it, and make it over the border. But my owner comes looking for me... CAUTION: NUDITY, SLAVE SOCIETY
	IF YOUR HEART IS BEAT: by Wayan; 1989. Nondream, digital graffiti-poem-poster. When your brain-cops are edgy, you're getting warm!
	ILLUSIONISTS DON'T RULE: by Wayan; 1996/8/26, a dream on the strength of logic. I read 'The Closing of the American Mind," and dream I'm a pilot who suspects an illusionist in my plane...
	I'M NOT BAD FOR A ROBOT MOM: by Wayan; 1993/11/12, an evaluatory dream. I'm an android struggling to raise a boy genius. But even human moms of prodigies share my problems!
	INVISIBLE KYOKO: by Wayan; 1995/1/16, a dream on bold and shy. I'm at a party in an air-lake. We fish for a girl who's gone invisible. But... what if we catch her?
	THE INVISIBLE SULKY: by Wayan; 1995/9/20, a dream on resistance. I feel a drag, and take off my safety belt. I find I've been towing an invisible buggy with two men in it...
	JANE IN VAIN: by Wayan; 1997/3/6, a dream that's not about class. A prisoner's allowed to see his middle-class lover only in a seedy bar by the jail. But she likes the place... CAUTION: THE JOYS OF SLUMMING
	JENNIFER MONTGOMERY: by Wayan; 1995/4/24, a journal extract Her film about her teenage affair with a pedophile is troubling enough before the FBI steps in to blackmail her... CAUTION: MOLESTATION/ABUSE ISSUES
	KOKO'S LOSSES: by Wayan; 1999/10/9, an elliptically predictive dream. Koko the gorilla has had some terrible setbacks lately... the double amputation, especially...
	LOON LADDER: by Wayan; 1993/5/13. A dream of rising above. I had this near-nightmare about climbing a DNA stair up to the sky, and stepping off... CAUTION: NUDITY, INCEST ISSUES
	LYNN HALL'S "FLYAWAY": by Wayan; 1997/7/6, a journal extract on religious abuse A book that kept me up late. Ariel and Robin get abused as subtly, as deniably as me and my sisters... CAUTION: RELIGIOUS/PSYCHOLOGICAL ABUSE
	THE MAN WHO MISTOOK...: by Wayan; 1995/9/19, an insane dream. I'm just an ordinary guy, who beats his son so he'll grow faster, and sees tits on drinking fountains...
	MENOLLY: Love Song to a Dragonsinger: by Wayan; 1977, a dreamish poem on giftedness and abuse. As a kid I was haunted by the parallels between Menolly of Pern and me...
	MERCURY: by Wayan; 1987/3/7, dream-poem of a lost future. Mercury didn't spin! One side fire, one side ice. We farmed in domes, between--until the sun brightened... CAUTION: BAD SCIENCE
	THE MIRANDA OATH: by Wayan; 1998/2/24, a political dream-fable. Strange oaths are proposed for the first geological expedition to the moon Miranda...
	MY GATE: by Wayan; 500K, 8 illus., 1996/5/29; a breakthrough dream. The full moon rose, I turned into Weregirl, did the Moondance, and gnawed open the lock on my heart... CAUTION: NUDITY
	MY PAST CHANGES SO: by Wayan; 1985, a poem on healing-stages. It takes time to build yourself out of found objects and trash...
	MY PRIZE: by Wayan; 1997/8/15, a short psychic dream on inner critics. A teen awards me prizes for art and writing. I wake to see her on TV--a gymnast after a prize herself...
	MY WILDCAT WOUND: by Wayan; 1994/7/8, a dream on gender trauma. I'm a wildcat in a cat/fox team led by a woman who wants us to merge with a man/wolf team... CAUTION: LANGUAGE
	NANCY AND KIT: by Wayan; 1994/1/3, a psychodramatic dream. I step between an ultra-femme girl and a butch boy, trapped in a psychodrama. But I'm bleeding...
	A NIGHT ON MOUNT DIABLO: by Wayan, 1984/6/8, an allegorical four-phase dream. I'm attacked by a narcissist firebird, a rabid rattler-manticore, a masochist bear, and a sexless succubus... CAUTION: INEPT DEMONS
	NOT A THING: by Wayan; 1981/3/1, a shocking dream. What if your mind doesn't think it's yours? What if it's not so sure you're even a person?
	NOT LOVE, BUT NOT ABUSE: by Wayan; 1996/6/6, a dream on gradualism. I dream I don't love my girlfriend, I just confuse non-abusive treatment with love....
	ONCE A HERO: by Wayan; 185K total, 9 images, 1998/10/22, a raw dream-series. Sexy dreams of Chinese archeology, authorized by the fairies, make me face that my family abused me...
	PHARAOH HOOKS: by Wayan; 1989/7/31, a deadpan joke of a dream. My sister and her friend the snake-woman tell me the facts of life: the golden hooks, the piglets... CAUTION: UNRELIABLE GYNECOLOGY
	PISSING MEMORIES: by Wayan; 1999/5/20, a dreamtale on non-sabotage. I desperately need to pee, but my bladder's full of two kinds of emotional trauma, and each blocks the other! CAUTION: BATHROOM PSYCHOLOGY
	POKEY?: by Wayan; 1993/4/15, a dreamtale on my soul. My lover's turned into a tiny living pull-toy, trapped ankle-deep in a wheeled platform. Can I free her?
	THE PROWLER: by Wayan; 1997/2/4, an illustrated dreamtale. My sister hears a prowler. I go out blind in the dark, and learn she's right. But what a strange intruder!
	QUADRUPLE WEDDING: by Wayan; 1995/5/15, a dreamtale. I get sick from figure-sketching. Guilt? Pray to my dream-gods, and find I'm at a weird wedding--as the bride!
	HIS RACIST SON: by Wayan; 1994/1/8, a dream on family hypocrisy. Suddenly I hate and fear black kids in school! The counselor says I'm clinically paranoid: I need drugs! My dad says "How strange, how sad." And goes home to light a candle at his shrine to the Confederacy... CAUTION: INDUCED RACISM
	MY RAPPEL-MAD SISTER: by Wayan; 1984/7/14-15, a dreamtale on being halfway. My sister hoists us up to the Goddess's country too early, or too late: the ice is thawing, treacherous...
	THE REAL MAO: by Wayan; 2006/7/9 and 7/11: two dreams (one possibly psychic) about an appalling book Jung Chang’s exposé of Mao's brutal deeds and legacy provoke dreams I demand that leaders listen...
	(IN THE) REHEARSAL ROOM: by Wayan; 360 x 600, 1982. A dream on shyness. I dreamed my fears faded like ghosts, as we made love in the rehearsal room. But invisible is not gone... CAUTION: SEX
	RECONCILIATION: by Martha Sherwood; 2003/6/19, a dream-parable Even after the Resurrection, a mother and daughter still have issues to clean up...
	A RENAISSANCE WOMAN: by Wayan; 1997/7/3, a dreamtale. I'm an abused girl turning tricks to survive. But this is San Francisco: I join a prostitutes' co-op, and meet... CAUTION: PROSTITUTES WITH SELF-RESPECT, OH NO!
	RESCUE FEVER: by Wayan; 1994/2/3, a dreamtale on rescue fantasies. A refugee girl crawls into my bed. We become lovers. I protect her. But over time... am I holding her back? CAUTION: ABUSE? OR NOT?
	RICH KILLER: by Wayan; 1994/2/1, a dream on abuse and rage. A rich serial killer in a sports car flaunts his virtual immunity, till I go after him in a light plane...
	THE RING'S ELBOW ROOM: by Wayan; 1997/8/17, a dreamtale. Widely held notions manifest easier. I could forge Sauron's Ring, and it'd really work! But do I want to?...
	(THE MEANING OF) RINGS AND TURQUOISE: by Wayan; 1998/11/1, a dream on independence. I'm in the park, feeling sad, till a girl on the lawn near me semaphores a message via rings and turquoise... CAUTION: EXHIBITIONISM
	THE RIPPLE EFFECT: by Wayan; 1992/6/19, a double dream of false judges. A dream of innocent incest turns guilty, grows into a war of ghosts versus a cult of sneaky sexy psychics... CAUTION: SEX, INCEST ISSUES, NIGHTMARE
	ROCKET BREATH: by Wayan; 1989/2/17, a physics dream. Floating in my parents' house, I get trapped in free-fall! How can I get a grip? (Nothing symbolic here!)
	ROSE AND THE THORN: by Wayan; 1986/7/1, a dreamtale on prayer. We're swallowed by Swamp Sofas and enslaved to The Man Who Prays on Us. Time to grow some thorns!
	SALIA AND CHUR: by Wayan; 1989/2/25, a psychic Star Trek dream. Our starship signs up a strange new woman whose quirks turn out to be the effects of slavery... CAUTION: SEX, ABUSE ISSUES
	THE SAN DIEGO CENTAURS: by Wayan; 1985/1/9, a slice-of-life dream. In San Diego, I fly around disrupting the UFO games in the junkyard, till I reconnect with a centaur friend
	THE SELL-FISH WITCHES: by Wayan; 1983/6/29, a dreamtale. My sister and I are runaways, developing psychic powers. A cult of fish-selling witches wants to use us... CAUTION: SIBLING INCEST, SPELL ABUSE
	SEVEN SQUARED: by Wayan; 1994/2/18, a dream about the IQ closet. In our wizard-war, I've hidden my nature. At last I come out; but I can't tell the whole truth...
	SEX THERAPY: by Wayan; 1998/5/18, a dream on the messiness of healing. Both of us were abused as kids. Sex is hard. So we go to a therapist who has us act out sex on the floor... CAUTION: SEX, ABUSE ISSUES
	THE SEX WORKSHOP: by Wayan; 1997/4/6, a dream on taking the next step. The teacher of our sex workshop picks me for a demonstration in front of everyone. Gulp... CAUTION: WELL WHAT DO YOU THINK?
	SILKY CROSSES THE ATLANTIC: by Wayan; dreamed 1982/8/24, painted 1994 (acrylic/ink/xerox). After I fled my batterer, I was afraid to love--afraid I'd give up my freedom again for mere kindness...
	SILKY RELENTS: by Wayan; 1997/3/8 a dreamtale on undoing old injustice. My anima Silky plans to kill a man who hurt her. Instead, we make them re-enact it, with variations...
	SISTERS OF THE INTERFACE: by Wayan; 1983/12/21, a shamanic dreamtale. My sister's beautiful; I'm plain. When she's murdered, I ride into the Interface Desert, where worlds meet...
	SLAVE MARKET: by Wayan; 1998/9/10, a dreamtale on freedom. Business solved the problem of cheap foreign labor: slavery's legal again. So our firm buys cheap losers...
	SLOW PARK FIX: by Wayan; 1996/9/24, a diagnostic dreamtale. Infected glass-cuts scar the vegan alligators in the park. As part of a cleanup, I'm told to EAT one...
	SOCK PUPPETS OF THE GODS: by Dee and Wayan; 100K, 1994/4/14. Parallel shamanic dreams!. A dance classmate asks a bizarre question that haunts me. That night I dream I'm suicidal--nearly kill myself. Then I'm shown the flow of human development--the same pattern, from souls to civilizations! Eddies and knots recur, but each time, the challenges get more spiritual. I wake up stunned. Then I learn what a shaman I know just dreamed... and now I'm unsure whose dream this is.. CAUTION: IDEAS
	SOUL-BOARD: by Wayan; 1989/1/12, an illustrated dream poem. Africa. My horse trusted me as we faced lions and fire, but to face the Soul-Board, he must trust himself...
	THE SPHINX APPROVES: by Wayan; 1991/5/2, a dreamtale on growth. A great war shrinks to wrestling, then hopping from page to page! Once they were worlds to me, but now...
	A STAB OF ANGER: by Wayan; 1997/5/24, a Jurassic Park dream. By a midnight lake, I comfort an abused girl in the mud. But then two figures with long knives appear...
	THE STAIRWELL TEST: by Wayan; 1980/9/7, a pedophilic defenestration dream. An underage girl comes on to me, and then asks me to... throw her down a stairwell?! CAUTION: DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME!
	STAY GROUNDED!: by Wayan; 1988/2/27, an unexpectedly grounded dream. I'm playing poker with a dragon. But we barely dare move: we're both crackling with thousands of volts...
	STEP THIRTEEN: by Wayan; 1997/7/8, a rebellious dreamtale. Two realities pester me like big spoiled babies to care for their mythic figures, till I go on shamanic strike...
	STICK IT BACK ON: by Wayan; 1980/7/15, a scattered dream still hiding a point. The tollman on the new bridge to the Land of the Dead revives a beheaded woman by RANDOM action...
	TAROT: MINE CHILD: by Wayan; 31K. Tarot card, 3x5", 1978-1981. Deep down in the strata inside you, gems lie waiting in the dark. Waiting for this child to dig them free...
	TEN THOUSAND MAD GHOSTS: by Wayan; 1996/9/3, a psychic nightmare. A toxic site in Silicon Valley isn't a chemical spill, but angry ghosts, killed in a camp and forgotten... CAUTION: THE CAMP TURNS OUT TO BE REAL
	TERESA'S BILLBOARDS: by Wayan; 1988/5/1, a dream about trust. Teresa mistrusts men. Her best friend Sabina comes on to me in front of Teresa, who blames me... CAUTION: NUDITY, BETRAYAL, GENDER PARANOIA
	THEY USE ME TO MASTURBATE: by Wayan; 1980/9/18, a two-edged dream. My sisters and their best friends all use me for sex. Sick, but I discover it's better than I USED to be... CAUTION: JUST PLAIN EMBARRASSING
	TIGER TALL: by Wayan; 1992/7/3, a marathon dream. I'm a tiger from Planet Cat, visiting Earth to run in San Francisco's "Bay to Breakers" race. I knew racial tensions were high, but why is William S. Burroughs out to kill me? Oh. Because...
	TO HELL: by Katie Hofgard; 2003/4/19?, a nightmare of loyalty I loyally served a demon who punished me until at last he sent me to hell. And STILL I didn't rebel... CAUTION: BLOODY ABUSE
	TOP-DOWN FREEDOM: by Wayan; 1984/7/19, a dreamtale. The government quietly ends all taxes and services in a small town just to see what'll happen...
	THE TYRANT'S WIFE: by Wayan; 1980/6/9, a dreamtale. In our plot to kill the Tyrant, we used his wife. Or... did she use us? She goes mad, but--she's HAPPY...
	UN-AMERICAN FANTASIES: by Wayan; 1996/7/19, a dreamtale. The All-American Family visits the fabulous Un-American Fantasy Store, where Mom is in for a shock... CAUTION: MILD NUDITY, LANGUAGE
	UNDER THE FUR: by Wayan, 700K total (5 p, 140K each), 1997/10/7; a color dream-comic (or plain text version, just 10 K) A strange creature slunk into our yard, carrying a skunk lunch. But she dropped her fur coat, and...
	VIRGIN ON THE VERGE: by Wayan; 640 x 680 tall, 1992. Digital picture/poem/rant. Ever since I was battered I feel like a virgin again: longing, but wary--scared where sex may lead... CAUTION: CARTOON NUDITY, SEXUAL THEMES
	WASTE: by Wayan; 100K, 1990/5/15, a desert singles poem, 11 images. A road trip through New Mexico mutates into a tour of my relationship disasters...
	WENDY NEGLECTED: by Wayan; 1996/7/22, a paradoxical dream. Ari neglects Wendy till she doubts she's sexy. I show her she is. But am I using her too? CAUTION: SEX TALK
	WHEN THE SPIRIT MOVES YOU: by Wayan; 1996/5/1, an alternate-world dream. An empire of creatures who go into seasonal heat has affected its human neighbors--or bred a new type...
	WITNESS: by Patagia, 2006/2/16, a poem of a redemptive nightmare A woman I had wronged set her pit bull on me! Hand in its jaws, I gave in, and we both began crying...
	WOMBERS: by Wayan; 1997/8/23, a journal entry on peace-at-any-price personalities Nancy Friday describes a certain kind of guy disturbingly like me, and I realize chronic illness has made me...
	YAKETY YAK: by Wayan; 1984/5/1, a dysfunctional dreamtale. I'm at a family dinner. Killer Grampa, kid-hating Ma, larcenous Dad. Then a bum offers some advice...
	ZERO SUM: by Wayan; 1996/5/29, a game-theory dream. I'm lecturing to a crowd: "Love's a win-win game, and abuse, lose-lose. But blame is zero-sum..."
	ZUCCHINI GIRL: by Wayan; 1996/9/23, a dreamtale on acting out. I find the truth about my childhood. My parents lied! I hide for days, then dub myself Zucchini Girl and go onstage, humping squash, calling it performance art! So do my friends see a problem? CAUTION: EXHIBITIONISM